[Intro: Hannah Williams]
Do I find it so hard
When I know in my heart
I'm letting you down every day
Letting you down every day
Why do I keep on running away?
[Verse 1: JAY-Z]
Look, I apologize,
often womanize
Took for my child to be born
See through a woman's eyes
Took for these natural twins
to believe in miracles
Took me too long for this song
I don't deserve you
I harass you out in Paris
"Please come back to Rome,"
you make it home
We talked for hours
when you were on tour
“Please pick up the phone,
pick up the phone”
I said, “Don't embarrass me,”
instead of “Be mine”
That was my proposal
for us to go steady
That was your 21st birthday
You mature faster than me,
I wasn't ready
So I apologize
I seen the innocence
leave your eyes
I still mourn this death and
I apologize for
all the stillborns
'Cause I wasn't present,
your body wouldn't accept it
I apologize to
all the women whom I
Toyed with your emotions
because I was emotionless
And I apologize 'cause
at your best you are love
And because I fall short
of what I say I'm all about
Your eyes leave with
the soul that your body
once housed
And you stare blankly
into space
Thinkin' of all the time,
you wasted it on
all this basic shit
So I apologize
[Chorus: Hannah Williams]
I'm never gonna treat you
I'm never gonna treat
you like I should
[Verse 2: JAY-Z]
I apologize
Our love was one for the ages
and I contained us
And all this ratchet shit
and we more expansive
Not meant to cry and die
alone in these mansions
Or sleep with our
back turned
We supposed to vacay 'til
our backs burn
We're supposed to laugh
'til our heart stops
And then meet in a space
where the dark stop
And let love light the way
Like the men before me,
I cut off my nose to
spite my face
I never wanted another
woman to know
Something about me
that you didn't know
I promised, I cried,
I couldn't hold
I suck at love,
I think I need a do-over
I will be emotionally available
if I invited you over
I stew over,
what if you over my shit?
[Chorus: Hannah Williams]
I'm never gonna treat you
I'm never gonna treat
you like I should
[Verse 3: JAY-Z]
And if my children knew,
I don't even know
what I would do
If they ain't look
at me the same
I would prob'ly die
with all the shame
"You did what with who?"
What good is a menage
a trois when you have
a soulmate?
"You risked that for Blue?"
If I wasn't a superhero
in your face
My heart breaks for the day
I have to explain my mistakes
And the mask goes away,
and Santa Claus is fake
And you go online and see
For Blue's tooth,
the tooth fairy didn't pay
[Chorus: Hannah Williams]
I'm never gonna treat
you like I should
