Her mind was confused
with a plus at the tip of the tube
Sick as she threw up
with a cup take a sip of abuse
So she gets nervous
cause her man left her
After the sex and he
jets she thought that
he loved her
You see shes 18,
and shes a bit conscious
About her dress and
the reflection of her own image
Timid in speech,
shes limited given a week
With her tummy blowing
up so that people can see
But she decides to keep it,
said no to abortion
The feet kicks in her
stomach comes without
a warning
She feels the pain though,
cause her parents cry
And the shame eats her
alive when she closed
her eyes
Then the day comes,
she gives birth to a son
Kim Sung-Hoon soon
she holds and kisses her love
Wishing it never ended,
taking a mental picture
Hoping through the tears
that her son would have
a better future
I wonder if theres a smile
on your face
Sometimes I miss you
and long for your embrace
I never could thank you,
enough for holding on
Dear mama mama mama,
forever,
I'll hold you in my heart
So she wonders,
what happened to her son next
Is there clothes on his back,
food on his plate whats
the context
The recollection of the
day replays in her mindset
And the ways she would
try but just never could forget
Well he's okay,
and he resides in the states
A needle in space
in which rain makes it
a beautiful place
Embraced by the culture
and he's loved by all the members
Until he turns 18 and
his world get flipped
He hears that his mom
is not actually his and
that complications
Prevented her from
having any kids
and his real mom
Is actually Korean
and she had,
to give him up for adoption
Cause she was young
and was a student
Lost and was confused and,
wrestling in the moment
Am I Chinese or Korean?
Am I destined in this union?
And if I am
what's the purpose?
I jot it in my verses
So I replay it in my mind
as I think about you
I wonder if theres a smile
on your face
Sometimes I miss you
and long for your embrace
I never could thank you,
enough for holding on
Dear mama mama mama,
forever,
I'll hold you in my heart
If I could write a letter,
and know that you would read it
I would tell you that
I never once in
my heart felt hatred
Reinstated I would play
a song and dance with you
Hold your hand as
I thank the Lord for creating you
As strong as you
are cause in my mind
I can't fathom
The pain and the guilt
when all you heard was
their gossip
And still you stuck through it,
when they called you foolish
And with this gift
that I possess your
probably loved music
I hope you're doing well,
I hope some day
you'll see this
I hope I mean
I really hope that you
know Jesus on a deeper level
Seeking just to know Him better,
I hope in perfect timing we can
See the reason clearer,
I hope you're smiling now
I hope I cross your mind,
I hope you never second guess
If what you did was right,
cause I'm so proud of you
I love and admire you,
so after all these years
this is my way of telling you
I wonder if theres a smile
on your face
Sometimes I miss you
and long for your embrace
I never could thank you,
enough for holding on
Dear mama mama mama,
forever,
I'll hold you in my heart
